Emotions for Him

random shit

Precious — Sat, 12 Mar 2011 03:15:02 +0000

first off i wanted to join the army or anything related to it then i noticed something conflicting that idea: i cant hear from both ears…. fml

second off i searched for jobs online and realized something again: i have no job experience or an AA degree nor any type of degree besides my high school diploma.

third off i want to make the best of my life withot going to college! or this college that is. why. bec i have no motivation here. i cant get off my bed to do things; like hwk or projects: they feel soo worthless. i cant match it. it doesnt feel right.

kinda ironic bec i want to learn, i want to be a somebody, i want to write, take notes, solve problems, unravel mysteries, meet new faces, discover the worlds events, be involved with some group thing, explore………………….

wow…. i dont belong… when can i say good bye to this world, well at least time flies so before i can ask this more than a zillon times i will probably be dead: HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good bye “emotions for him blog”

Precious — Tue, 15 Feb 2011 19:45:06 +0000

i wont be using this blog so much because i no longer feel connected to this blog nor does it define who i am today. i dont want anyone but one man i have in mind. ive surrounded myself with the love of doing activities and falling into the educational cycle. ^_^ thats not the best part; i will post things i feel like are mmm not so deep and revealing on this blog and the rest on my new blog.

the new blog’s first blog says : “So this blog is going to be a very mixed blogging. Nothing but only one main topic on here- my life after my golden year. I am 19 years young with a developing mind that absorbs all kinds of perspectives and information the world has to offer. I am with a heart that yearns to be united with another yet is cautious towards who it might be. The life i lived is behind me and the life i am living is in front of me. seeing this i must know which path i am walking upon; am i going in circles? chasing my past, present and future? looking too far behind? looking too far ahead? or am i right where i should be going towards a life that leads to peace for the heart, soul, mind & body? too many questions to answer soo little time to worry. the answer is right here in my actions feelings and thoughts. but the truth is revealed Only in time . Only one way to find out! LET LIFE CONTINUE ITS ROAD!” soo yea that.

Who are you stranger or friend?

Precious — Mon, 14 Feb 2011 13:38:20 +0000

Every time i check my blog

i see how many persons has viewed it.

many times it says atleast one or two.

i keep wondering who it might be

a stranger or a friend.

who ever you are

can you put my curiosity to an end?

would you be courageous enough to tell me who you are?

Ive given you peices of my mind

and in return i am asking for your name or a brief description of yourself.

for you

Precious — Thu, 10 Feb 2011 22:27:10 +0000

youre one of a kind,

which is very hard to find.

you’ve been cathing my eye

and i cant completely figure out why.

all i know

is you make a golden glow

that makes me smile

in any style,

&makes me laugh many times

and giggle like a bell that chimes.

You even give me energy

that makes me feel free.

though we are apart

there is a special place in my heart

for only you

so what you gonna do?

February seventh two thousand and eleven

Precious — Mon, 07 Feb 2011 17:39:39 +0000

I am going to hunt a man down
i am taking it seriously
i will be steady, precise,
have confidence & aggression.
While i am at it
i will have fun!

may 22 2009

Precious — Sun, 30 Jan 2011 07:32:29 +0000

The day I saw you I thought you were different; but now i see you are not
Remember the days your hopes were too high; i could not see it happening.
The day i thought i actually loved you ; I do not know how much it was.
Remember the day you fell in love with me; deep inside you also knew you falling too fast.
The day I realized you believed i was the one; i knew you were wrong

Because The day when i hurt you, you don’t like it, it was a turn off but you ignored it and kept loving me
The day when you yelled at me it hurt me a lot; you regret that but i do not.

Because The day when you realize that you knew how i felt, and it mde you feel stupid. whos fault was it?

The day i realize everything got so weird, and still i don’t know how to explain that to you.

Still I wish you feel the same way as i feel right now.
I have too many dreams i want to achieve, i have many goals i want to accomplished, and yet i have no time for you, that is the truth.
I’m sorry i wish you could understand.
I wish we could still be friends.
I want to find the right words for you to completely understand.
But how? How can i do that?
i cant. all i can do is continue on the course i am currently on.
adios amigo

june 13th 2009

Precious — Sun, 30 Jan 2011 07:27:36 +0000

my life feels so ruined
why do things have to be like this

move on

Precious — Mon, 27 Sep 2010 23:10:51 +0000

at first it was swirlies
u gave me all them curlies
then later i got it straight
and then i knew it wasn’t fate
i left and laughed that day
while you desperately wanted me to stay
i am not sorry i left you behind
i am not sorry i am still stuck in your mind
its all in your head
when you lay awake in bed
feelings and thoughts unwind
leaving with only one kind
the thought and feeling of nostalgic
so dont become an alcoholic
just move on without a knife
and live your fucking life

finding him

Precious — Mon, 27 Sep 2010 23:05:25 +0000

I stand under the sunlight
my days are bright
my world is full of the beauties of nature
till he fitted in the picture
he stands under the moonlight
his stars still twinkle past midnight
his trees are dark
one cannot see the bark
gravel floor
no exit door
just a light
so very bright
leading to my new world ahead
leaving no story unread.
i welcomed him with love and joy
and dayum hes one lucky boy.
he smiles
he laughs
i giggle
i snuggle
we stand together
hand in hand forever
with our world sewn so tight
we survive our days and night

i dont love you just wanna know you

Precious — Mon, 27 Sep 2010 22:58:33 +0000

love? no just oddly interested. i look towards the excitement, feeling such curiosity and noticing unsolved mysteries which i am more than willing to look into. unresistant urge to know you better. from what you’ve told me- i could never find anyone else with such rich character. sure you have a few flaws, so? it doesnt bother me just yet. so thats why i wanna know you more.